I meditate daily. Without that meditation practice, I probably would’ve been a raving lunatic or a gibbering fool. For many years now, since I first came across Deepak Chopra when he was on tour in South Africa, I have practiced and honed my Body, Mind and Spirit. Donald humoured me and even went to one session with me!
When one gets fully immersed in life, there are many distractions – things that let you forget about what’s ‘out there’ – as Mulder said in the X-Files : “The Truth is out there …” But, the Truth is also in here and all we have to do is go into the silence and listen. Still the thoughts and just BE – even if it’s just 10 minutes each day. The more you listen the more you hear.
Since my Donald left this earthly plane, I have been unable to cry. I could see no reason to, as we had given our all to each other. I had reason to be grateful that I had known him for so many years and shared so much. So very much!
And then, this morning, I did a guided meditation with Davidji – you may listen if you follow this link : http://www.talkshoe.com/talkshoe/web/talkCast.jsp?masterId=122968&cmd=tc&fb_source=message
Davidji asks many questions and they brought to mind all of those things in my life that I am so grateful for. I won’t go into detail here but all I can say is that without having known my husband, I would’ve been a very poor soul. I cried my gratitude and thanked that which we call God for all my many blessings.
Many people have asked me what my plans are for the future. Until Wednesday evening, I had no idea. But, I sat outside on the patio, eating my supper of cold chicken and salad, sipping an ice-cold dry white wine and looking out over the landscape in front of me. It was bathed in that after glow of sunset and the beauty was magnificent – all pinks, purples, apricots and pale blues. And then the lines of a poem – or perhaps it was a sutra – came into my head : I shall wait here … and rest awhile …
The dogs, boxers, will turn 7 in November. My residence permit will need renewing in 2016. There seems to be some unfinished business here in Cyprus that I feel I need to let play out … while I wait here … and rest awhile.
I have yet to find the ultimate reason for coming to live on this ancient island. It wasn’t just for the tax benefit! There is so much more here; so much still to discover and unfold.
I want to walk by the sea, swim in it, talk to the wind and smell the wild herbs on the hot breeze. I want to lie on a hilltop at midnight and watch the oceans of stars and feel the moon caress my skin. I want to rejoice in the first rains after a long hot summer and discover the wild flowers in spring.
Yes, I shall wait here … and rest awhile.